My first high school failure

Sally, my first real friend in my new school. . . She seemed so nice, we got along great, and she liked me. Sometimes her stories seemed a bit far fetched, but hey we were friends. As we became closer, her true colours started to show. Man did she love boys, they didn't like her so much, but she liked to pretend they did. This was a bad combination. She was always going on about all her boyfriends. . . She even tried her luck with a few of the older boys, so she started to get a reputation. I was her best friend, so guess what happened to me? It was assumed I was the same. Soon we had a whole bunch of enemies, a lot of them had been potential friends, especially older girls. I stayed friends with Sally that year despite the bad stuff. I'm the type of person who likes to c the good in people, and we had good times, but after a while I couldn't handle the reputation anymore.
We ended our friendship and I set out to redeem myself. I guess what you think of yourself influences what others think of you and how they experience you a lot. I didn't like myself, I irritated myself, and so others didn't like me much either. That was one skew circle that wasn't gonna end until I made some changes and did something about it.

Isiah 53:5
"But he was pierced for our rebellion, crushed for our sins. He was beaten so we could be whole. He was whipped so we could be healed."

High School continued

Jack and Natalie were Gr 10 when i started high school. Jack's brother was matric and had a car! I got a lift with him in the mornings, I thought I was super cool driving around with a matric. Unfortunately when I got out of the car in the morning, our friendship with my housemates pretty much got put on hold till we got home. They weren't so cool after all, and they were older, so they didn't really want to be seen hanging out with a Gr 8. I tried spending time with them in the beginning, but soon gave up. It wasn't working. So the plan of having them as my friends in high school pretty much failed. Might as well have gone to a school with my primary school friends, atleast then i would've known somebody who was going through the same changes I was, and who was the same age as me. But I had made the decision, and now I had to try and make the best of it. I didn't like myself very much at that stage of my life. I based my opinion of myself on what others thought of me, and not on what God thought of me. That's where I made my mistake.

"But I have come to understand that I do not have to be perfect in order to receive acceptance, love, and help from the Lord, neither do you." -Joyce Meyer-

Fearfull choices

So, primary school ended and I was faced with the big decision of which high school to attend the next year. Seeing as I had basically no friends in my primary school, i chose the high school my friends from the estate attended. I was the only kid in my primary school going there. I walked in the first day alone, not knowing anybody my age. I was excited, yet terrified.

Prov 3:24,24
"you can go to bed without fear; you will lie down and sleep soundly. . . For the Lord is you security. He will keep your foot from being caught in a trap."